My fatal flaw is weed.
After freelance SEO writing for 2 years, I started an agency 7 months ago.
So for the past 3 years, I’ve worked whenever I wanted as long as I hit the deadline. I have no one to answer to. I have no time constraints. I’m literally nocturnal for weeks on end (I prefer it), only stopping when I must attend social gatherings or hang with friends.
It’s all well and swell. Except, that luxury of time makes me smoke weed / take edis. I do it almost every day, for the past 2 years.
I function normally the day after and it doesn’t affect my work or income. But I know it’s still going to affect negatively me long-term because my brain is still developing.
I don’t WANT to suffer those consequences. Yet? I just don’t want to stop.
The worst part is that I don’t think I’m actually addicted. When I went to visit my friends in another city for example for a week, not once did I have the urge to get high. When I actually have to do something, I won’t get high. I just won’t feel like it because responsibilities are nagging at me.
I think why I do it so much is because the position I’m in with my business and freedom makes me kind of lonely naturally, since all my friends are 9-5ers. So I take weed to sort of have fun in my own company with music and shit.
I even do martial arts and weight-lift 4-5 times a week. I like taking the edi while I workout.
I feel like it’s also stunting me from taking my business to $10k+/mo.
Do you see my issue? It’s not posing a direct threat necessarily, and I like it. I want to do it. But I know I should stop. I don’t think im addicted. HELP.
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